this is litteraly a dream of mine, at times it fades in and

out of time and goes from 3rd to 1st person perspective

It started in third person perspective over a bed whare it was obvious 2 pepole were

haveing sex one of which was me and i had no idea who the other was till i heard

a voice scream out in plesure and i instantly knew who i was with, my best friend who 

i have a crush on. All movement stopped after the scream and after a short while a voice 

spoke out again."That was amazeing Ben, im glad you talked me into this"

robert my best friend said, then it started fadeing. 

when it came back it was first person perspective of a person i instanly 

knew was myself sitting on a bathroom toilet looking at a pregnacy test, i knew what 

i was thinking and how i was felling at the time "My god...it's true..." the test was

posative. In my head i was repeating "fuck no" i felt pain in my stomache and i was 

just plain confused, i Ben Rodda a 18 year old was pregnant with the child of my 

best friend who is in a relationship, i felt like my life was over.

Then it started fadeing. 

When it came back i was standing infront of my parents who 

were stareing at me wide eyed "this is a prank of some sort isnt it?" my father said at me

"sorry but no...i didnt know this would happen" i felt like i was going to die. I just wanted

to run away, but i stood thare and let myself get lectured about how the next nine months

of my life is going to be verry chalenging, but that i should be happy and should be 

carefull because i was carrying life inside of me. "ben your pregnant and just remember that"

those were the last words i heard before it started to fade again.

When it came back i was sitting in a room with robert's family again it was first person

perspective "i came over to say whell...this isnt easy...uhh" i started to hesitate and 

wonder what thare reactions would be, i was worried thay would hate me when i said it

"what is it ben? why is it so inportant we all have to be here" robberts older brother ryan

said with an obvious tone of anoyance in his voice, "whell im...uhh..." i still couldent say

it "what the fuck is it ben i have better things to do" robberts younger brother chris said.

"im pregnant..." the words finaly came out and i felt as if someone had punched me in the

chest, my heart was hurting so bad "how the fuck..." robbert's older and younger brother

said in unison. "i know how...we had sex" robbert said quietly then his mother stared at

him with a expression of pure shock on her face "you did what?..." his mother said with

a mix of anger and shock in her voice "you..had sex with him?!" obviously angry now 

his mother looked straight at me with a death stare she said "leave, now" her voice was

cold, i looked at her with tears in my eyes and got up, and started to walk out as i felt a

hand on my arm, i turned around and seen robbert looking into my eyes "dont go, please"

he pulled me into a hug and i instantly stared to cry into his chest i couldent stop myself

from crying is it started to fade.

when it came back it was a third person perspective of me and robbert sitting in his room

a few months had definately passed because i was starting to show with a small round

belly sticking out visibly from my body as we were talking about the baby discussing 

names a sound piped from the computer signaling someone was calling him on skype

as he went over to answer it we both knew who it was, alice his girlfriend he hadent left

as the call started up i sat waiting for him to stop talking but then he mentioned my 

pregnancy so i looked over at him, everything went black for a seccond and it changed to

first person perspective. I walked over to him and whispered into his ear quietly so his 

girlfriend didnt hear "why are you telling her about the baby robbert? you said not to tell her"

he whispered back "i know i didnt but i said you got raped now im gona turn the video on ok?"

then as he pressed the button the picture showed me and lee standing togeather and on

the other end i hear alice say "so you wernt kidding when you said he got raped, damn."

i put my hand on my belly and sat down waiting for the call to end as he could talk for

hours, i eventualy ended up falling asleap as things faded.

when it came back it was still first person perspective and i was sitting in ryan's room.

He was pokeing and prodding my stomache "hey cut it out your gona do something bad"

i said to him anoyed at the pokes hurting my stomache 

"ill stop but i still cant belive this is happening, it just seems like bullshit." i looked at him

with a obvious stare of anger "ryan dont swear around the baby ok? its bad for it" i watched

him nod and turn away to go work on other things as chris came into the room and 

grabed my arm picking me up and pulling me out he then pushed me agaist a wall and

talked quietly "ben, get the fuck away from my family or you will regret it" he had a fist

pressed softly against my belly as i looked at him i knew i had a look of fear on my face

then a voice shouted out of nowwhare "CHRIS WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!?"

i looked to the left slightly and robbert grabbed chris and pulled him away, pushing him

to the floor "chris, leave ben alone or ill rip your fucking arm off and shove it up your ass"

chris got up and started to walk back into his room but before he did he quickly turned

and punched me into the face, knocking me to the floor before walking into his room 

i started to fade out of conicousness.

it faded back in at a hospital, time had yet again passed and i was lieing on a hospital bed

my shirt was pulled up over my belly it must have been about the 6 months mark as i 

looked around i saw robbert and a doctor then the doctor started to talk to me.

"Ok were about to do a ultrasound scan to check the baby and see if its all fine and well"

he had me lift up my shirt "ok this is going to be a little cold" and he placed a kind of

gel on my belly as he placed the ultrasound device on the gel as he slowly moveing it 

around every now and then saying "mhmm" and "yes.." till one of us finaly said something

"so how is the baby doc?" robbert said inpationtly "yes the baby is fine and growing well"

as the doctor removed the ultrasound i placed my hand on my belly and smiled whispering

"hey thare lil guy most of the time is over, you will see your daddy soon"

it started to fade again

it faded back in as i was walking back home from a store as someone stepped infront of me

"umm hello?" i said i didnt know who he was, suddenly he grabbed my arm and started

to pull me somewhare "whare are we going?" the man looked at me with an evil look

"your going to get somehting that should teach you not to fuck around with pepole"

he dragged me into a bush and two others grabbed my arms and held me down as the man

started to pull off my pants and his own then he started rapeing me calling me countless names

names and swearing at me and suddenly he stood up and reached into his jacket pulling

a rock out and readying to throw it at me then i hear a voice shout, it was chris defending me

"get off him you assholes" he said as he started to walk closer to the guy and grabed the

rock the man was holding as he took it out his hand he pushed the other two off me and

helped me up, passing me my pants as we ran back to my house "what the fuck..." i looked at him.

I couldent belive he would do that, he hated me, he hated the fact i was pregnant yet he saved the life of

the baby "ben your lucky i didnt let your kid die, i hate you but since your with my 

brothers kid i have to. Just remember you owe me" he looked at me with a look of hatered

but he had his hand on my stomache checking if the baby was allright he looked at me

and smiled slightly "the baby is fine, luckyly be carefull before you get your kid killed ok?"

he took his hand from my stomache and took a phone out his pocket and dialed a number

"hi mom its chris, ben was just attacked and his baby was allmost killed can you come pick me up?...ok"

he hung up the phone and looked over to me "ben your gona come live with us for a lil while ok?"

he looked at me with a look of worry "we cant let the baby die" then it started to fade again.

When it faded back i was in robberts room and he was in a call with alice

"Robbert dont you think we should be going to the hospital yet? the baby is gona come soon"

i said to lee rubbing over my stomache waiting for my water to break

"ben were not going till i finish talking with alice i have something to tell her"

he looked back over to his computer and beckoned me as i walked over he turned on the

video and put his arm around me and rubbed my belly "ben...i want to say something to you"

he stood up  and looked me in the eye "ben i promise you i will care for you till the day i die you hear me?"

he then turned to his computer "alice i have a confeccion. Im the father of bens child, he wasnt raped we made love"

i felt a pain and a wetness on my crotch and i looked at robbert and said "robbert i think its time"

then everything faded and my dream ended